It's been a year since heaven gained an angel and my heart broke into a million pieces.
It seem unreal that it has been a year. It seems like yesterday that I was sitting on the couch, cradling Cosmo and recounting all the times we had together. You know, when I was going through my divorce ny Dad called me and told me that I had to get up and walk Cosmo every day. And I thought to myself, of course I already do that. But what he was really saying was I know it will be even tough to do that, but you must. And I did without realizing what that was doing for me. I realized it only when I didn't have Cosmo to walk any more. And man, there are days when it has been taught getting out of bed this past year.
I've missed everything about Cosmo. I miss him greeting me at the door when I get home from work. I miss him flying off the couch and run to bed when I say let's go night, night. I missed talking to him and him listening to me when I'm upset about something. I miss him changing the sheets with me. I mostly miss our evening walks.
I've begun imagining a life with a new puppy, but I'm not quite there yet. One day, maybe. Until then, I'll say goodnight to Cosmo each night and look for him when I wake in the morning.
